I think I need counselling on issues?? Do I?

I've been living in a predominantly white area I'm mixed raced, I have suffered alot of racial abuse =[ and even though im in my late teens i'm still scarred from it, I really don't like where I live, and I'm beginnning to dislike the colour of my own skin, I really wanna bleach it, I hate my eye colour is brown and I absolutely hate my hair, I just want normal hair like a cauceasean person, cos Im sick of having dodgy frigged up hair =[ Im depressed about it. shall I seek counselling?